I have an “opportunity” to make stripper money (low end stripper money, but still, stripper money) at a real job here in the city a few hours from where I live. It would be a job doing something I enjoy and am pretty good at, but still. A job. Being told what to do. Having a schedule. Being told how to do something that is important to me, and perhaps having my values dictated by an agency.
Still, it would be steady money, probably fun, and I could work one week on, one week off, and pay the land off in under a year. I think, perhaps naively, that the job is mine if I apply. I am overqualified (it blows my mind that in the impovershed area I lived in in PA, a job like this would require a college degree and pay like $7/hour, where here in Alaska they can’t find people with degrees and pay more than double).
If I’m going to apply, I have to stay in town instead of going home tonight and apply tomorrow morning.
My other options are to drive like a day south and work for an indefinite amount of time to make an indefinite amount of money in Alaska.
Or, drive down to the midwest and work about a month (maybe more, maybe less) to pay the bills and have the living on money for the rest of the winter.
Or, drive down to the midwest and work at least three months, although realistically there is a law of diminishing returns and it takes me more like four months to work three months, and pay off the land completely.
Or, stay in my cabin out in the woods and try doing phone sex and making websites for money and hope it works.
Gah. Should I go home tonight or stay and apply?